2 things to mention this evening (and one of them isn't how sore my butt is sitting here)

Firstly, I have a real problem saying no. I don't mind babysitting and it is a part of my ministry here in Vancouver...it is an easy way to make a little cash and it is an awesome way to build relationships with kids and families. But when you do it all weekend every weekend and then you start during the week it gets draining. It feels like I am with kids constantly which for the mostpart I love, but some nights I just want to sit in my room by myself and chill to some music. But I hate to disappoint.

And my fear of disappointing leads me to think about what Jon talked about at staff devotions this morning. How we need to amputate certain parts of ourselves so that we can live a spiritually healthy life. Which sounds harsh and like something most peeps wouldn't be thrilled about doing. But the amazing difference between amputating our fears and our inadequacies and amputating a body part like an arm or a leg, is that God will replace what we have cut off. He will replace our fears and shortcomings with a new heart and a new soul.

What do I need to amputate? My victim mentality, worrying about money, my self-confidence and ability to say no, laziness, 'over-working', holding grudges, stubborness...the list is endless.