Today I  had a driving lesson in the rain and the car broke. Then I had to go to the job centre and sign on for job seekers benefits because I still have no job and no money. Then I got in trouble with my parents for my finances just like I did in high school. Then I went out for dinner that made me feel really sick afterwards. Then I hung out with friends in Belfast but didn't say a word because I felt like I was on the outside of a bubble and all conversation was muffled. I still smiled all day, remained my cheerful self but everything keeps pointing down the 'you're not supposed to be here' road. Was I kidding myself thinking I could stay here for a year? Are my friends and family enough to keep me here? They used to be.

Blair arrives tomorrow.....I get to meet new people and go on a mini roadtrip vacation next week. Just what I need. I keep thinking how awesome it would be if all my Vancouver peeps were coming, we would have so much freakin fun!!