Not really.
There is so much 'clutter' in my headspace these days that I don't know what to do with. I am constantly re-evaluating myself and what people tell me.
"You need to stand up for yourself". Fair enough. "Problems within my community are getting worse". I agree. "You're not ready to be a site director". Disagree.
I am so busy thinking about these things over and over that it is suddenly 3am in the morning and I am still not asleep. That suddenly I am doubting my abilities even though I know deep down I am capable. That suddenly I haven't read my bible in a week and then, not so suddenly, I've separated my struggles from my God. Now I have to start bridging the gap so I can use the skills God gave me to fix my community and to stand up for myself by proving that I am more than capable of doing what I want.
Feels like I spend more time bridging gaps between me and God than enjoying my relationship with God.
1 comments:
I totally get that feeling too. not sure how to fix it though. ill get back to you if i figure it out.
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