Retreat 2008 is over and Summer Camp starts in T-1 days. It was awesome to be back @ Rollie's and be reminded of how beautiful the earth is but there was a very different dynamic to my personal retreat this year. Last time I was one of the new interns, more excited than ever and this year, as a staff member, I am somewhat reserved (4!) and less excited. I think the new group is great and I am so thankful for their energy because it serves as a reminder to those who have been around for longer that UrbanPromise is awesome and our purpose is just. But I feel like I am distancing myself for my own safety....I gotta check out in less than 2 months so why make it harder than it is already going to be?? I think it is a skill to be able to continuously invest in new people despite the fact that you know they will only be in your life temporarily. To not fear goodbye's. It's all about being present. 

As for Camp Peace Remix....I am looking forward to being with the kids again and to run my own program but I need to be more excited. For me to achieve my personal goals this summer I need to be more motivated to put Remix first and all the other shit second. 

What are my goals this summer? Just quickly....

1. Develop my Leadership and Apostleship skills in preparation for future missions.

2. Spend more time with God through Prayer, taking time to go back over the past few years of my life and pray for all those things that have shaped me into the person I am....good and bad. 

3. Continue seeking Peace of mind.

4. Give myself and my kids Closure before I leave.

5. Fight the voices of the enemy and the man that are so loud inside my head.

6. Explore and apply the idea of Mercy and Pastoring in my life.

7. Spend quality time with the people and kids who have impacted me over the past year.

8. Be present and make the most of it!